FRIENDSHIFTS
I wrote this entry in my Multiply account last June 24, 2006 --I don't feel the same way but our relationship stayed the same...that is if being stangers could be considered as a 'relationship' :-D
FRIENDSHIFTS
Jun 24, '06 1:44 AM
Witty girls with fuschia nails don't get the blues or do they? I think just for today, my fuschia polished nails can tell how this long time gray feeling turned into blue and hopefully after writing this hate entry, It'll turn itself into wind and just poof gone!
Arrghhh.Sigh.Now the drama.
I just feel so bad and mad and abandoned like an ugly, thin and dirty stray cat being thrown into the GI sheet roof at 12 noon in the mid month of April, Philippine setting ofcourse. You know the feeling that you could very possibly get when your used to be good friends BLOCKED you from their IM list and you can tell because you have several common friends...intentionally uninvited you to a get-together-something of your used to be circle of friends and told you such lame excuses later that it was rather unplanned and that they're sorry you missed the fun, when you were just commenting on how fab their pictures are! Sweet, I know. I mean, c'mon, you haven't invited me and singled me out alright and now these lies? So you think I'm that stupid? Or you think I haven't learned a thing or two in pre-schoool? Right sure I haven't. I haven't because I started school at GRADE 1. So don't take me for a fool! wehehehe
I'm not being bitter because I feel alone and friendless...Infact I earned new friends and if it was the fact that I was abandoned that brought me these new friends, I should be feeling better later--I am better now, thank me. It's just so frustrating that after trying hard in reaching out and swallowing all the pride, it still doesn't make things better. And I don't know why it still hurts but it does.
I used to be a very interesting person then, uninteresting now?
My jokes seem to be funny then, am a dimwit now?
I used to be cool to be with, now just plain boring?
I told a friend that she shouldn't let her relationships define her. Yet it's hard to do.
Who would I be on my own?
Ha! I wouldn't really be on my own ofcourse but if in case I would, I'll still be me, only stronger and prettier ^_^!!
Cheers!
1 Comments:
to gorgeous:
well in fairness they stayed for a while. For some of them, they think it was me who just came for the party and leave just when it's time to clear the mess...major miscommunication that seems irreparable...at the moment.
Still hopeful?! haha
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